Faye Chevalier: You Get Revived, You Pay Rent
you get revived, you pay rent
after “Sharp Teeth / Soft Hold” by Melody Nielson
my fingers as mounds of asps,
an entire hand down my throat—
the ruin as tombstone;
a body, venerating
the life & death
of a body,
as much remembrance-machine
as earth-holder, a signifier-death—
we cleaned the house today,
leaving the snakeskin on the floor,
a mediation of a queer theory of decay,
foreign smells, & a gag reflex for days—
my body is made
of a lot of little bodies,
of dead things
of silence—
the “Which Angel Are You?” Buzzfeed quiz of living
kill me on Groove Night
then block me on twitter,
spend the morning
-after backpedaling;
i can never tell
when i am the object
of violence,
so bested by
the forthcoming
so fragile in the rain;
& when you cut off
the head of a rat king
it will j grow
a new rat king
from said severed head
we know this bc of
the many rat king corpses
that go missing, the cold act of
flesh begetting white noise,
not-needing in the rain,
or rather,
not-needed by the rain
i don’t think i want to ruin my own life anymore
this here, is a “kill”;
lanes of pity for the birds
clawing out my human throat;
my sorry scent of fractured stems;
acts of glazy sonnet-ing
piling over them purchased
still-living
remains
Faye Chevalier is a Philadelphia-based poet and essayist. She is the author of the chapbook, future.txt (Empty Set Press 2018), and her work has been featured in The Wanderer, Peach Mag, Witch Craft Magazine, the tiny, and elsewhere. Some of her awards and recognitions include being the first ever poet to have work published on a cyberpunk tabletop rpg podcast (Neoscum 2018) and also a Pushcart nomination. Find her on Twitter where she cries about cyborgs, vampires, and having a body at @bratcore.