Nicodemus Nicoludis: We’re No Longer Responsible

Nicodemus Nicoludis: We’re No Longer Responsible

when i think of january i think of you

 

the simple moon                    

& my books on the windowsill

 

as we cross our shadows                   

looking for the cat howling

 

in the alley traps these feelings again             

& snow is coming      

 

the first of the year    

sort of late      

 

& like when i touch your hand                      

or face especially this morning

 

it’s a sort of anticipation of the thing itself               

as much as the result  

 

the cause & causation of cold                        

of heat             of blankets

 

& our nakedness                    

silent for the night

           

if you asked me what it was like starting over

maybe this is the feeling that comes just before that starting

 

two people having just fucked trying to shut up

some cat who wants the same thing

 

but doesn’t know anything

but how to wreck itself in the night

 

& call up towards the lonely spotlight

frozen over brooklyn

 

 

paper lanterns

 

i

across the city on windy nights

we light the paper lanterns chris bought in chinatown

 

we cheer for them to miss the apartments

& old-folks homes across 1st avenue

 

we watch them fade

into more Brooklyn light pollution

 

we’re no longer responsible

 

ii

on the 4th of july

they reached straight up

becoming more quick light

in the painted orange sky

 

tiny fires burning slower

now in dense september

quietly wanting more air

they sink & eat out of the dark

ahead of us

 

with a shove they slide back & forth

waddling towards low clouds

hanging curtain-like

 

 

iii

over new york there are paper lanterns floating

while i invent new ways of learning to disappear

 


Nicodemus Nicoludis is a poet and writer living in Brooklyn, NY. He has been a featured poet at brooklynpoets.org and his work appears in Potluck Mag, Maudlin House, Chronogram and elsewhere. He earned an MFA from Sarah Lawrence College, teaches at the Borough of Manhattan Community College, and tweets randomly @nicodemvs.